Lost in a new world. A world that I've seen before, I've experience before, but yet this world is dfferent. What about this world is new, the work, the time, the city, or is it something simpler. Yes I know, it's the FREEDOM. No one to tell me or ask me who, what, when, where, and why. Those people are 5 and half hours away. The freedom feels great, it's raveling my body and mind. So why do I fell lost in thought, feel so alone, like it's me against a jungle of natives who fits right in. I'm losing my mind in this liberating freedom, I'm not the guy that got my to this crazy land. What happen in only 3 weeks that I looked around this crazy world and am jealous of the people in their college relationship, the old me wouldn't care. I started out Sylvester and Sly but now I've became soft and emotional like Jr. Why do I get lost in time a things I've never thought of doing and not doing things I usually do, maybe I'm turning into X, or Reaper, or whatever he wants to be called. I'm feel like crying in my sleep because I don't feel the same or yelling and screaming cause I'm pissed at myself. Yet I can't because I'm too quiet, so I just star and look angry and depressed, and listen to sad and angry music that makes me want to do something drastic. I nedd to find me again, what if the old me doesn't want to come back in. What if I lose him forever, this is my personal quest to do for myself. For if I don't do it now, I may be lost in this new world forever.
Sly
ReplyDeleteI'll be interested to see what other lost worlds you encounter here at Berea. This is an interesting topic for us to follow.
What are those things you used to do but aren't doing now?
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